Ahh the sweet smell of being replaced
maybe if you came and fell asleep next to me I wouldn’t be so sad
Last night Siena, Savannah and I went to a party at Andrew Addy’s. It was overall a pretty uneventful night but seeing everyone from GP in real life opposed to through the lens of social media was nice. I saw Mike for the first time in FOREVER and I yet again questioned our friendship.
I don’t think he understands how much I care about him, even if it is just as a friend. It’s hard sometimes to differentiate between feelings of friendship and actual feelings. Alcohol does not help in that equation. I still occasionally get waves when I think I actually want to be with him but simultaneously he’s one of my best friends. It’s not worth putting that relationship on the line at this point.
I’m finally going back to EL tomorrow… My opinion on living there has gone full circle this summer. I’m really proud of myself for powering through living there alone because as strong as I may have seemed, it was an extremely difficult time for me. I can’t be happier that it’s over and I can go back to being my normal self finally.